"I Miss You"

Talk to me.

I feel empty,

Without you.

Speak to me.

Help me breathe.

I miss you.

(Chorus)

I feel helpless when I can’t reach you.

I feel hopeless when I can’t teach you.

It will never be the same, and I know that.

But still…

I miss you.

I miss you.

Cry with me.

I feel dry,

Without you.

It’s too dark.

I need a spark.

I miss you.

- chorus –

I miss the challenges we accomplished in the light of our love.

I miss the feeling that when we’re together that was enough.

I miss having the beautiful by my side to distract from the hard times.

I miss planning how we were going to spend the rest of our lives.

I miss having you in every thought of every second of every day.

I miss you knowing what I was always about to say.

I miss sharing our past stories and sharing each others’ pain.

I miss knowing I would never know someone like you again.

- chorus –

This is just far too beautiful for any words.
Pure talent.

My hero.
xxx

"Everything"

You kill me with your silence.
Do you feel anything at all?
Do you have any emotion
In your concrete heart?

You're always so secretive.
Don't know why I trusted you.
I used to think it was mystery.
But now it hurts me.

Laid everything out on the table
You had every card to play with.
You're a numbers man who's able,
To win any heart you lay with.

(chorus)
And I gave everything.
But got nothing.
Yet still I gave everything.
Even though I got nothing.

Once was a time where we,
Were able to talk to each other.
And once was a time where,
No one else knew.

But Mr attention seeker,
Aligns with his female counterpart.
You're so alike in your facial disguise.
Playing those around you in your games.

It burns me to question
Why I gave so much to you?
And can I risk doing the same now
For somebody else new?

- chorus -

"It Wouldn't Be Me"

Sometimes it hurts so hard that I forget to breathe.
Sometimes I cry so loud that people worry about me.
Sometimes I fall so far that I become unidentified.
I'm in a place that's undefined.

(chorus)
I'm reminded all the time that this wasn't all my fault.
Even though I took the blame you had your fair assault.

Somebody would miss you if you were to go.
But who that would be, I don't know.
Because it wouldn't be me, no.
It wouldn't be me

Sometimes I'm so damaged that I just can't be repaired.
Sometimes I get that feeling that you never cared.
And sometimes I hate myself and I become alone.
And sometimes hell is my home.

- chorus -

"Details"

"Details" by Simon Robb and Arran Holcombe

Click on the link above to hear mine and Arran's cover of a beautiful song by Jason Mraz and James Morrison.

The song holds a lot of memories of a difficult past time. The lyrics are moving and inspirational.
Everyone should always know their name.

xxx

"4 weeks today..."

4 weeks today I go to Alaska. I could not be more excited.

In 4 weeks time I escape the Woking world. I escape the bad people that harm me. And most of all, I escape reality. I get to be in my own world and do whatever I want.

I won’t think about feelings like love and hate. I will concentrate on being one with no identity. I will be the Supertramp living a dream. I will push personal boundaries and do things I wouldn’t usually do. I will see sights that not many others have seen. I will explore until there’s nothing left to explore, or die trying.

I will not think about those that hurt me. Those that are selfish, narrow-minded and arrogant to the world we live. I will still feel pity for those that can’t place Africa on a map, but I will not care about them one bit. I will probably still think about those I used to love, and this will upset me because they don’t deserve my time. But this is something I will just have to deal with.

I will make new friends. I will get a stamp in my passport. I will take hundreds of photos and hours of video, but most of all…I will live my life.

Peace
xxx

...oh Sue...